I was planning on doing this post on BRH, but this seems to be the place to speak most freely... After all, a memoir is just that, my story as I see it... Right? Well, I once worked for Branden Books, a publisher...well actually I didn't work for them. I had agreed to do reviews (with no pay) for that company. Anyway once I was sent a memoir by a very famous star in the movies... I read as much as I could stand and notified the publisher that I would have to refuse to review the book... He later told me that he expected me to decline... But at that time, when I wrote my email, I explained that it was obvious that these were the words of an older person that had no writing experience and the book should not have been published in my opinion... He then explained that it had specifically been a book that they were willing to pay for--just as it was written... My thought, how egotistical. Or was it cruel that whoever had handled the manuscript wasn't brave enough to explain the very real problem...to that movie star...
I learned, once again, this morning when I woke... I was still upset... But I tried to sit on my bedside and do the stretching exercises I do every morning... but my mind was already exploring what I would cover in this Back to the Basics--devastation... I don't know about you, but, for me, I can't exercise and think--never could. When I exercise I do it with a specific set of moves in mind... If my mind starts thinking, exploring, I lost that set of moves. I have to stop, clear my mind, and go back to the basic exercises that are really very simple...
When I finished? First thing, I get food ready for Angel, my one inside cat, who now has four kittens to feed... She's first every morning before anything else... But my day's home activities are not what I mean by the Basics...
It is the mess that computers have played during a major part in. In disturbing my regular routine of being retired... Actually, I never retired. I enjoy working, using my mind, reading a book and then, thinking through how the book affected me--mostly from a personal standpoint these days. That's why Gabby takes over. Then Gabby talks, it is an opinion piece rather than a professional review (with fringe comments, these days)...
Yesterday was a disaster from the standpoint of daily routine. That has not existed since the beginning of the second political term... When I, or anybody really, chooses to speak truth to power, there was/is, for me, a certain underlying fear of retribution... I don't blame myself, you see, I know what has brought me back into Burnout/PTSD. I can identify that day specifically. It's when I needed to register in my new state for voting. My sister immediately proclaimed that as a Christian, I must vote republican. Well, I knew that wasn't going to happen, so I dropped her comment into my memory bank of "awareness." This was not going to go well... And it got worse, thereafter... Ending many months later when another comment was thrown at me, which I won't get into at this time. Because I had no idea what she was talking about... I had already seen the ability of republicans to gloss over what I saw or heard myself... I didn't intend to ever again not speak my Truth...
My Mom used to do this. She was working at WVU as a baker while I worked in Personnel many years ago. I would have been answering phones, doing all the things that people in offices get asked to do, and she would be waiting for me in the car. Sometimes she would even start in the middle of a sentence (of something she had been thinking about). Finally, I looked at her and told her bluntly she had to at least give me 5 minutes to escape and clear my mind from work... She looked at me, somewhat shocked, and, then, apologized...
You see, each of us gets wrapped up into our own lives, each day our lives go away from home and we become an employee for somebody. Some bosses are good bosses; some are monsters in sheep clothing... You know what I mean, right?
So with that bit of history, back to my reality, 10/12/26, and a whirling dervish of a mind as I woke...
Well, that was interesting...I wanted to see if I could find a video about the phrase that had come to my mind (God incident?) and immediately I got an exact basic origin of the dance that I'd used before on a recent book... Another connection, unknown to me, was brought forth to point to what can result from heartbreak, confusion, a loss... A whirling dervish...
Anyway, this morning I obviously was able to add videos, but now it will be another day of figuring which site I will be able to get to and actually post....
So Here's What I Know...
Within the last year, one day I was typing away and suddenly a bunch of popups began coming at me a new one there. A New one on my right, then left... They continued... At a total loss for I could not have created this even by my mistake, I panicked. It's happened at least one more time recently and I was smarter. I quickly turned off the computer.
But when it happened, like I said, I did panick and tried to discover what was happening. At that time, I supposedly did have a program for safety which obviously had not stopped this... I tried this, I tried that... It was Windows 10 and I knew most of the administrative needs that could be required... Finally, I asked for a return to what I thought meant back to what it looked like when I first bought the machine--it was at least 10 years old. No, that particular command return it to factory level... I had no skills to handle any language for computers...
I have admitted and always will. I know nothing about the technical side of a computer, even though I know lots about how I think a computer can be used as a tool... I felt that was my role... A tool was a tool and should provide support for me, as I worked. That's what had happened for me since I was 18, working at a university, and using a mainframe to support what needed to be...computerized... The computers upgraded and I did too... But this was beyond anything I'd ever thought possible...
Soooo, I pulled out a stash of hidden cash and bought a new computer... Dreading it, because it would include a new version of windows... Immediate Fear... Actually, since my niece was with me, she volunteered to set it up for me and did it much more quickly than I could have. Once up and running, I loaded Chrome. A browser that I had been using for at least 20 years. Besides Blogger was part of that routine that had been running for the same number of years...
I opened a few screens from Windows, saw a mess of what somebody had dreamed up as a plan of use...and Closed it... The computer is HP. Same thing happened, their software began to pop up "Use Me" I simply was not interested... So at some point early on, I asked Gemini if I had any legal reason to use the software on a computer that I paid $500+ to purchase. I was told no... Of course, that didn't stop the need to close software that I was not interested in using when a "Use Me" cry was demanded... After awhile, resentment starts to build... How many times is required when even a computer system refuses to accept NO... Makes you think of humans that do that, right? Digressioon intended...
Sooo, the Nemesis appeared in my life. Dramatically, although he never reads, uses somebody else to write his "truth" blog, and declared, once he saw himself in AI finery dressed up as pope, god, gladiator, king, any dream he ever wanted to be called, he declared that AI was full-speed ahead...Forget about anything--but the money to be made... No, don't worry about the loss of water and electric power...Winning is most important, and, first, pay me a downpayment in the millions to have the right to be seen with the president at his inauguration... That's sufficient as a downpayment... Now go, fight to win...use any method required... AI Must make our nation, my kingship, ruler of the world!
Ok, if you truly feel that I'm too sarcastic in my description, let me know in the comments... But realize, this is just my personal opinion, of course... I don't attempt to say I speak truth except when it involves my faith... Hope that clears that up, but still comment or add your own opinions... My on-campus job during the majority of my career was negotiation between and among deans and directors on the use of space owned by the University/Board of Regents... I prepared for that by analyzing/research/producing reports to prove my recommendations. If necessary, the president/vice-presidents made a final decision based upon my recommendation/data... So, nothing I say or do, except when talking to my cats, (even after this vp declared me a cat person, single, meaning not having babies--you know, the children who would be separated from parents on the whim of a political party... Yes, I know... we need to move on, or back to computers...
So, the race is on
Another digression is called for... the race is on phrase brought up George Jones... Ages ago I went to one of his concerts near me. Wasn't really a fan--the guy who I was dating at that time wanted to go... Stayed, not a fan, but went on to dinner...only other thing I remember was that he left no tip...Sometime later, I mentioned it to my Mom... She calmly said, well, you know what type of husband he would make, right (my memory of the discussion, my words in retelling... When he took me to a house already built--he had been dating another employee on campus who I knew and she finally after years, broke off from him... You get the idea, what he wanted/had was more important than other people... including a female to live with him in his house...
And that's what we're now in...
The mess created by men who do not care about humanity. Basic Fact...
Look at them. Not one Woman leads the top Tech companies. Women are the nurturers. We care about people... In general, I believe my opinion is accurate but I could be wrong... What I do know is that, without any thought about the impact of suddenly switching to AI in the middle of...
That's the problem, right there. Nobody knew it was happening until it was implemented... And now, each and every one of those top leaders online in leading tech platforms are in the race with a blessing by a man who has only one goal - to rule the world...
You know, there have been many people who claimed they were worthy or even proceeded to call themselves by their chosen name--king, president, dealmaker... Well, often they were placed in rooms with walls covered by soft materials so they couldn't hurt themselves--or other people, more importantly... Unless, they had money...
There's a reason I digress, you know. It's because of those who do not care about anybody but themselves and whoever they can con to do exactly what he wants...
Soooo, I took a break to take my morning pills, worked for about 5 minutes to even get the Fire Stick by Amazon moving, working... and finally was able to pull up YouTube and the above video, which happened to be about AI... I don't know about you, but when a coincident becomes something that happens over and over and over, I tend to believe that it is really a God Incident... I didn't even listen to this entire video though I will later... I believe it will lead some readers to begin to understand that no man has the ability to create something that God did not provide a brain for that purpose... I don't have it, nothing... but, to be given a gift to begin thinking in the methodology by which computers were first conceived... is certainly a consideration that should be right now, don't you think? Or is it already too late? Key from this author, speaking in the video, he points out that God has created man in His image, linking brain and consciousness! Do you know what that means? I can conceive of a meaning, but I have no way to learn more, because, of course, Only God Knows...what Consciousness is. I do believe that a small speck of that has been placed in every human...but, with free will... How many have actually thought to explore what that means... I didn't until 2015, although as I think back through my life, my choices in understanding, for instance, the Holy Trinity and what it meant to me, appears to be something that has evolved until...
Well... my personal ability to sing (no matter how it happened, I'm glad to have my songs back to share in my memoir, especially...)
AI has become my roller coaster. It may bring you thrills, but often that machine has caused pain, fear, and death... I "choose" to no longer ride roller coasters although I loves them when I was young--a child... But, as I grew older, I put away childish things, except books, LOL... some read only for enjoyment, thrills and solving mysteries...
So what did it mean when AI suddenly became a danger to my life? It brought me back into Job Burnout. It brought me back into an insecurity where I was doing something that no longer was able to be done, yet I was still responsible for it... You could probably say that blogging is my choice... Yes, it is...but many individuals have come to depend upon what I do...
Take for instance, when I bought a new $500+ computer, I was thrilled to open it up and find "my stuff" was there... I realized that when I saw that Word was still available and that a book I had agreed to review was still there... And another one... which I had not yet started on... which I agreed to AFTER AI invasion... Here's the basics...
I had started using gmail for important mail. No it is not my preferred mail because I had been using one program for well over 40 years and even though I had lost my files when I moved, I knew the program... Now, AOL on which I was one of the first users was bought. AOL had lost out for whatever reason and was no longer functioning as a full platform. I still chose to use AOL mail, simply because I knew it worked for my needs... That is, until Yahoo bought it and suddenly I was being extorted by flooding my mail box with hundreds of worthless, often "manufactured" ads and the company openly told me they'd get rid of them... for a cost...
Anyway back to gmail... I had told an author to send his manuscript to me so that I could start doing PR and help raise funds for getting his memoir published... I could not open the file attachment. No, I don't know why... I only know that it would not open... Gemini gave a long list of methods, rather than just saying GMail has changed...deal with it which would have been the truth... I asked the author to send it to AOL. I got it, but suddenly I was being told by Windows that my program was illegal...
Now, on my old computer which is where this word program came from, I had searched for and found a free copy to use for the few times that I needed to support writers. I was given a copy, free, based upon my meeting their rules at that time. Again, I have no idea how that Word program survived and came up on the new computer. But suddenly, I was being told that it was illegal, that I had to use a Microsoft program that was installed on the new computer and after a while, I would need to start paying for its use... I refused.
Now, also the copy that had been sent was in smaller print than I can't read without magnification caused by another ineffective surgery). I explained that in feedback... I opened the Word when a small note showed, for accessibility, which it was indeed. But, I could never get that working... A followup was popped up asking if satisfied. My No was ignored... I could not use the magnification tool I needed... In fact, it was AFTER the race to win had occurred...and so I wondered... yeah remember, I'm a connector of facts and there are either no coincident or only God incidents that are acceptable if I'm needing Truth...
I had to go back to the author and apologize and we are working on GETTING AROUND MICROSOFT'S EXTORTION OF FORCING THE USE OF THEIR PRODUCT... I've already written about the monopoly being allowed by this company, so you'll find it somewhere... I am unable to deal with where things are and [rovide correct link... During all that, I also discovered that I can no longer pull up my archived, data entry files... So, while I'm talking about the basics, please know that if I find an error when I need to link to a previous book by an author, I would take the time to correct it... Now, apparently, my archived data entry screens are no longer available to work to improve/create an error-free book review... Another change post AI be forced on us...
The entire platform of Windows 11 has been revised. Windows 10, just one upgrade before, was logical, alphabetized to allow easy searches, etc. Now, they've lumped them into topic tools, but give no definition to explain what/why they thought one thing would be used for this or that, while I would use it for another reason... More specifically, programmers are being allowed to create their visions of masterpieces, while having no idea what their consumer/users actually do with their tools... And the main problem is that Tech people become tech people. And Users are never allowed to participate in those creations to explain why this is making more work not less work, because most of us have found AI does not think like humans... And having tech people creating programs without user involvement creates the giant mess that even the first level of AI has produced--a mess, no longer a tool...
In fact, Gemini agreed... the move toward something more with AI has purposely forced common searches to become data gatherers... So what does that mean to me, bottom line...
When I do a search to bring up what I need to write a review, it used to be that I could quickly do a search on a site, say, Amazon, and find the book... Indeed, when I lost my desktop book file which I'd had for years and used routinely, suddenly I was no longer able to bring up a book by author... Yeah, they allow you to alphabetize the author...but who wants to mess through finding one book among 4000 when previously a quick search would bring it up... I even gave feedback as a user while this new software was being built... None of my suggestions were followed. After all a programmer was creating HIS library and no user had a right to actually complain about what he was doing, especially when negative comments were being made. By the way, when I was trying to get a updated version of a book recently--and failed, I saw on that online library that you "could" search by author...But the copy provided me did not show the search box clear at the top of the page... Having a large library could be the problem... I had asked that I be able to archive read books so that the size of search could be faster... Nope! No can do... Now seriously, if you had 4000 books in a library, say, half of them already read, wouldn't you think it appropriate to move them from the full 4000 search list? Duh, common sense???
When I was reviewing upon request for all books, I would post 0n about 20 sites... It was an easy search and post at that time...
Without going further today, let me just say that I can now post only on one site... on that site, yesterday, via a popup I was told I couldn't post on so many groups, even though relevant and as a member of that group, that it was bla, bla, blah (explaining their assumptive reason) and a stop was placed on my posting... So of course I double checked the facts from one day of posting to the next day...
Now if my readers have not changed so dramatically based upon my having posted on various groups I had joined, often by publicity streamed for membership, I might accept this criticism... So I checked...upon stopping posting to relevant groups, the decrease occurred immediately... from nearly 300 to less than a 100...
Now I'm not one to try for increasing viewing just for numbers. Otherwise, I would use the money-making methods that are available for Blogger and used by many other bloggers... For some bookd, viewers reached over a thousand and moved on from there, continuing to be discovered years later by new readers of the blog... Books never get old...
That cannot be said for Tech people... Even when a platform is functioning, somebody decides to start picking at this process or that process and the result is/was that I was unable to enter MY BANK online account for months...
I could go on and on... Let me just say that being burdened by a tool created by a fool who doesn't listen to users, or worse, cares more about participating in a race while their guinea-pig users are forced to adjust is, in my opinion, a moral crime even if the Tech leaders or the government has incited it...
Ivan Pavlov's theory is classical conditioning, a type of learning where a biological, involuntary response becomes linked to a previously neutral environmental cue. Experiment using Dogs...
No, I don't salivate; I was used, abused, and ultimately manipulated...
Believe this, it wouldn't be part of my memoir, if I was not being forced to ride the roller coast after I stopped playing with toys...
Let's work together so that not one Child of God is stopped by any corporation from being who We Are, NOT what is being forced on Us!
In His Name
Gabby
Thanks for listening
Gabby
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BTW, I was responding, or trying to respond to people who had posted on yesterday's post... A mistake was made, the comment did not appear on the right post, and instead went to be added to another post which I had earlier responded to... I felt I needed to explain...a technical mistake being made...and got stopped again!
No prejudice, right?
