Just like me... It's Hard to see through Extreme Hate or Incompetence... Which is Worse, I wonder - Open Memoir 10/14/26

 

I walked out of my primary care doctor's appointment recently... My boiling point had refused one more lie, or an incompetent office--or if I want to be kind, the desire to make money by reducing staff support seems to be the trend... We are the ones that suffers... Led, of course, by the infamous Secretary of Health...

Then I walked into a new office that had everything ready, answered questions before I asked, verified what I needed to know. Handed me paperwork and said I could bring it back when I was ready... My main concern right now is to ensure that my medications are available as they need to be refilled so I'm starting with that for now... But actually trying to complete that paperwork brought back just how many years I have suffered through, due to placing student teaching, above the needs of a person in need of help... Accomplished with concern, care, and efficiency...

I had just finished two other surgeries--on my brain and on my left hip. Both were handled wonderfully and I was feeling good about the WVU Hospital... BTW, when I first arrived on campus, the hospital had a bad reputation...That director is long-gone...

Then I walked into the eye clinic where there must have been 50 people even more waiting already... We all apparently had appointments. I was just one... There had been no qualms on my part to go ahead and proceed with the removal of cataracts on my eyes since my earlier procedures had gone so well...

I should have stuck with the eye doctor who had been treating me for a number of years... I have since reconnected with him... The problem is that it is too late to change anything, unless I undergo further surgery...

I went back to Dr. Martinelli in Uniontown PA, for a consultation, a too-late second opinion... He explained that it was now routine to, during cataract removal, insert your prescription into your eyes during that surgery...

He then explained that HIS office would have done extensive discussion with me explaining what that would mean. My guess is that he would not have inserted my prescription...but he never said so... He did share that he'd had other patients coming to him who had similar problems with the Eye Clinic...

When I started preparation activities, students were doing all the work, the interaction with me... They took eye exams, they used this machine and that machine... then they would go and talk to the doctor/surgeon and come back to review the next step... 

I remember when we were finally scheduling the surgeries one right after the other, suddenly one of the students excitedly said "and we're going to insert your prescription..." Me, I said "Cool," and went on with the dates and issues during the surgery... Not once was my eye need ever discussed. Specifically, after all of the exams, surely they knew I needed glasses only to drive/see distance. In fact at that time, I only used my glasses for driving... Would a prescription routinely be inserted for anybody wearing glasses, before verifying WHY that individual wore prescription glasses?! Hopefully NOT! But that's what happened in my case...

Previously all my reading was easily done without assistance. If I needed to see something very small, I could move closer for those instances...rarely...

Should I have not expected that the prescription would NOT be for distance, then... What was the purpose of all that interaction with so many different students, that I had to often repeat answering questions??? And why did the doctor only get involved when the schedule for him to perform the surgery was already determined?

Like with the technical side of computers, I know nothing about medicine, especially surgeries. I expected the same quality of service as was previously provided... It was only later that I realized that the interaction with the brain surgeon and the knee replacement surgery was always with the surgeon, even if a PA gathered initial information. For the knee replacement, I even got a notebook given to me of exactly what would happen during the surgery and after... I knew what I needed to know thanks to the support...

Why was my eyes not as important as the first two involvements directly with the surgeon... As a Book Reviewer, I considered my eyes as the most important for daily needs, even though the other two were more complex, perhaps...

Does not surgery on your eyes, no matter what age, also involve discovering what you do with your eyes? How you spend your day... Had you had eye problems before? None of that was even a part of this process... yet, even if brain surgery and knee replacement were fairly standard, the reason for the surgeries were clearly defined... Not at the last minute, as a BTW thought... So, why didn't anybody explain to me what that really meant, BASED UPON MY NEEDING GLASSES ONLY FOR DRIVING?

They didn't know obviously; they didn't ask... I have to assume that I am not the only patient who went to that clinic and had distance prescription for glasses that weren't use except for driving...

Sure I can drive fine now... but I wear my glasses, mainly for sun control, which I pay extra to add... At least that person spent time to ask about screening the sun... Wearing the glasses with the prescription is a no-go for daily life...

Result of that lack of competence in simply asking how I used my eyes and when I used my prescriptions... has ruined every single day of my life since then...

Going out to eat is no longer a joy unless somebody is with me. I can't read the small print of a menu...

Worse, I can't read the prescription bottles without magnifing glasses - and a 3 level magnification is needed to return my eyes to ability to read standard small print...

I used that to fill out the forms for medical history, etc. for my new doctor and I still had to lift the paper because it was a form and print was even smaller than, say a book...

I can no longer read paper books... I had a large library that I am slowly giving away since the effort to attempt to adjust to the print in each book is extreme difficult and there is no way that I can concentrate on actually reading the book...

I can only read ebooks now, increasing size as needed. I have lost all ability to enjoying the front cover, reading the back cover, being quietly pleased when the author has taken the effort to ensure their ebook reflects the same qualities of design as a printed book. Sadly most authors don't even read the copy of their ebooks. It's quite easy to recognize... There is NONE of the required formatting that professional publishers routinely provide...yet they either don't know enough to know what their book looks like when millions may be sold and shared... In many ways, that's the main reason that I no longer accept books for providing reviews... You see, the design of a book when reviewing is a significant part of evaluating the overall impact of a book... Even books now being sold by popular authors have not taken the time to ensure ebooks are visually similar to print...

Anyway, I digress often, don't I? Maybe that's why I'm so upset about what was done to me...

Even on social sites where the platform is controlled for multiple users is an impossible situation... By that I mean, that the print size I have to have for this type of site must be large enough for me to see...but because of the formatted page, it creates significant difficulties... For example, I was in a discussiion with a man who posted on my profile... a discussion got started... I tried to scroll and find responses that I got notified of, but could not find... either there is insufficient space to scroll up or down or some other part of the screen loaded with some other issue prevents being able to see my discussion because it has been "written over" by something else due to size of print used on the platform...

And I can't help but include what routine searching in AI has caused with this problem, in particular... The print has to be so large that the, results of a search can actually run out of space... I don't know how else to explain it... But, as I've mentioned before, AI race has caused a simple search to require programs to expand/provide as much data as can be found, apparently, they think that more data means a good thing for the future... That "might" be true for a historian of a teacher, or even a student... but for the average person, a search mean just that, tell me something quickly so I can proceed with MY work...not YOURS...

And the more lines that are thrown at me unnecessarily, just makes me more and more aware and defenseless... Yesterday, I even refused to use the bill process at a high level restaurant that expects the customer to deal with the tip, add the tip to the cost... and then pay for sometimes a sub-adequate meal... I choose, now, to ignore being made to feel inferior of not being able to follow their commands of doing their accounting... I give the money directly to the waitress, especially after I discovered that, waitresses have to wait until the company against which I charge something sends the money back before they get the money into their hands... In this economy, I refuse to allow those who must depend upon tips because they aren't being paid a decent salary, to also have to wait for that money... And I tip well...

Anyway, now that I actually wrote this fully, I just might send it to the Dean of Medicine at WVU... When I was there, the VP brought me in to handle scheduling of spaces for teaching there... He wanted to be part of the University as a whole... These days, it seems, everybody is out for themselves... And that happene as soon as a new president was named... This one, though, wasn't quite as bad, until AI was shoved down our throats... feeding so much data that may or may not be in response to what you actually need... With my eyes, I have tested enough present generation, to know, it is more of a burden than any help it will be in my lifetime...

Just had to Finally get it out...

Gabby

Just how long can we survive when money becomes more important than people?

This is my personal opinion; it is based upon facts I can prove and is used as part of my freedom to speak. You have the same rights... Remember that...

My Memoir; My Life - Shared hopefully so that others may not face the results of those who care nothing for humanity or We The People

Each day places me in PTSD...for one reason or another... Over 2000 years and we are still killing each other for power and riches... WHY 

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Let's Get Back to the Basics - Getting on a Roller Coaster - At My Age - Not a Good Thing - Open Memoir

 

I was planning on doing this post on BRH, but this seems to be the place to speak most freely... After all, a memoir is just that, my story as I see it... Right? Well, I once worked for Branden Books, a publisher...well actually I didn't work for them. I had agreed to do reviews (with no pay) for that company. Anyway once I was sent a memoir by a very famous star in the movies... I read as much as I could stand and notified the publisher that I would have to refuse to review the book... He later told me that he expected me to decline... But at that time, when I wrote my email, I explained that it was obvious that these were the words of an older person that had no writing experience and the book should not have been published in my opinion... He then explained that it had specifically been a book that they were willing to pay for--just as it was written... My thought, how egotistical. Or was it cruel that whoever had handled the manuscript wasn't brave enough to explain the very real problem...to that movie star...

I learned, once again, this morning when I woke... I was still upset... But I tried to sit on my bedside and do the stretching exercises I do every morning... but my mind was already exploring what I would cover in this Back to the Basics--devastation... I don't know about you, but, for me, I can't exercise and think--never could. When I exercise I do it with a specific set of moves in mind... If my mind starts thinking, exploring, I lost that set of moves. I have to stop, clear my mind, and go back to the basic exercises that are really very simple...

When I finished? First thing, I get food ready for Angel, my one inside cat, who now has four kittens to feed... She's first every morning before anything else... But my day's home activities are not what I mean by the Basics...

It is the mess that computers have played during a major part in. In disturbing my regular routine of being retired... Actually, I never retired. I enjoy working, using my mind, reading a book and then, thinking through how the book affected me--mostly from a personal standpoint these days. That's why Gabby takes over. Then Gabby talks, it is an opinion piece rather than a professional review (with fringe comments, these days)...

Yesterday was a disaster from the standpoint of daily routine. That has not existed since the beginning of the second political term... When I, or anybody really, chooses to speak truth to power, there was/is, for me, a certain underlying fear of retribution... I don't blame myself, you see, I know what has brought me back into Burnout/PTSD. I can identify that day specifically. It's when I needed to register in my new state for voting. My sister immediately proclaimed that as a Christian, I must vote republican. Well, I knew that wasn't going to happen, so I dropped her comment into my memory bank of "awareness." This was not going to go well... And it got worse, thereafter... Ending many months later when another comment was thrown at me, which I won't get into at this time. Because I had no idea what she was talking about... I had already seen the ability of republicans to gloss over what I saw or heard myself... I didn't intend to ever again not speak my Truth...

My Mom used to do this. She was working at WVU as a baker while I worked in Personnel many years ago. I would have been answering phones, doing all the things that people in offices get asked to do, and she would be waiting for me in the car. Sometimes she would even start in the middle of a sentence (of something she had been thinking about). Finally, I looked at her and told her bluntly she had to at least give me 5 minutes to escape and clear my mind from work... She looked at me, somewhat shocked, and, then, apologized...

You see, each of us gets wrapped up into our own lives, each day our lives go away from home and we become an employee for somebody. Some bosses are good bosses; some are monsters in sheep clothing... You know what I mean, right?

So with that bit of history, back to my reality, 10/12/26, and a whirling dervish of a mind as I woke...

Well, that was interesting...I wanted to see if I could find a video about the phrase that had come to my mind (God incident?) and immediately I got an exact basic origin of the dance that I'd used before on a recent book... Another connection, unknown to me, was brought forth to point to what can result from  heartbreak, confusion, a loss... A whirling dervish...

Anyway, this morning I obviously was able to add videos, but now it will be another day of figuring which site I will be able to get to and actually post.... 

So Here's What I Know...

Within the last year, one day I was typing away and suddenly a bunch of popups began coming at me a new one there. A New one on my right, then left... They continued... At a total loss for I could not have created this even by my mistake, I panicked. It's happened at least one more time recently and I was smarter. I quickly turned off the computer.

But when it happened, like I said, I did panick and tried to discover what was happening. At that time, I supposedly did have a program for safety which obviously had not stopped this... I tried this, I tried that... It was Windows 10 and I knew most of the administrative needs that could be required... Finally, I asked for a return to what I thought meant back to what it looked like when I first bought the machine--it was at least 10 years old. No, that particular command return it to factory level... I had no skills to handle any language for computers...

I have admitted and always will. I know nothing about the technical side of a computer, even though I know lots about how I think a computer can be used as a tool... I felt that was my role... A tool was a tool and should provide support for me, as I worked. That's what had happened for me since I was 18, working at a university, and using a mainframe to support what needed to be...computerized... The computers upgraded and I did too... But this was beyond anything I'd ever thought possible...

Soooo, I pulled out a stash of hidden cash and bought a new computer... Dreading it, because it would include a new version of windows... Immediate Fear... Actually, since my niece was with me, she volunteered to set it up for me and did it much more quickly than I could have. Once up and running, I loaded Chrome. A browser that I had been using for at least 20 years. Besides Blogger was part of that routine that had been running for the same number of years...

I opened a few screens from Windows, saw a mess of what somebody had dreamed up as a plan of use...and Closed it... The computer is HP. Same thing happened, their software began to pop up "Use Me" I simply was not interested... So at some point early on, I asked Gemini if I had any legal reason to use the software on a computer that I paid $500+ to purchase. I was told no... Of course, that didn't stop  the need to close software that I was not interested in using when a "Use Me" cry was demanded... After awhile, resentment starts to build... How many times is required when even a computer system refuses to accept NO... Makes you think of humans that do that, right? Digressioon intended...

Sooo, the Nemesis appeared in my life. Dramatically, although he never reads, uses somebody else to write his "truth" blog, and declared, once he saw himself in AI finery dressed up as pope, god, gladiator, king, any dream he ever wanted to be called, he declared that AI was full-speed ahead...Forget about anything--but the money to be made... No, don't worry about the loss of water and electric power...Winning is most important, and, first, pay me a downpayment in the millions to have the right to be seen with the president at his inauguration... That's sufficient as a downpayment... Now go, fight to win...use any method required... AI Must make our nation, my kingship, ruler of the world!

Ok, if you truly feel that I'm too sarcastic in my description, let me know in the comments... But realize, this is just my personal opinion, of course... I don't attempt to say I speak truth except when it involves my faith... Hope that clears that up, but still comment or add your own opinions... My on-campus job during the majority of my career was negotiation between and among deans and directors on the use of space owned by the University/Board of Regents... I prepared for that by analyzing/research/producing reports to prove my recommendations. If necessary, the president/vice-presidents made a final decision based upon my recommendation/data... So, nothing I say or do, except when talking to my cats, (even after this vp declared me a cat person, single, meaning not having babies--you know, the children who would be separated from parents on the whim of a political party... Yes, I know... we need to move on, or back to computers...

So, the race is on

Another digression is called for... the race is on phrase brought up George Jones... Ages ago I went to one of his concerts near me. Wasn't really a fan--the guy who I was dating at that time wanted to go... Stayed, not a fan, but went on to dinner...only other thing I remember was that he left no tip...Sometime later, I mentioned it to my Mom... She calmly said, well, you know what type of husband he would make, right (my memory of the discussion, my words in retelling... When he took me to a house already built--he had been dating another employee on campus who I knew and she finally after years, broke off from him... You get the idea, what he wanted/had was more important than other people... including a female to live with him in his house... 

And that's what we're now in...

The mess created by men who do not care about humanity. Basic Fact...

Look at them. Not one Woman leads the top Tech companies. Women are the nurturers. We care about people... In general, I believe my opinion is accurate but I could be wrong... What I do know is that, without any thought about the impact of suddenly switching to AI in the middle of...

That's the problem, right there. Nobody knew it was happening until it was implemented... And now, each and every one of those top leaders online in leading tech platforms are in the race with a blessing by a man who has only one goal - to rule the world...

You know, there have been many people who claimed they were worthy or even proceeded to call themselves by their chosen name--king, president, dealmaker... Well, often they were placed in rooms with walls covered by soft materials so they couldn't hurt themselves--or other people, more importantly... Unless, they had money...

There's a reason I digress, you know. It's because of those who do not care about anybody but themselves and whoever they can con to do exactly what he wants...

Soooo, I took a break to take my morning pills, worked for about 5 minutes to even get the Fire Stick by Amazon moving, working... and finally was able to pull up YouTube and the above video, which happened to be about AI... I don't know about you, but when a coincident becomes something that happens over and over and over, I tend to believe that it is really a God Incident... I didn't even listen to this entire video though I will later... I believe it will lead some readers to begin to understand that no man has the ability to create something that God did not provide a brain for that purpose... I don't have it, nothing... but, to be given a gift to begin thinking in the methodology by which computers were first conceived... is certainly a consideration that should be right now, don't you think? Or is it already too late? Key from this author, speaking in the video, he points out that God has created man in His image, linking brain and consciousness! Do you know what that means? I can conceive of a meaning, but I have no way to learn more, because, of course, Only God Knows...what Consciousness is. I do believe that a small speck of that has been placed in every human...but, with free will... How many have actually thought to explore what that means... I didn't until 2015, although as I think back through my life, my choices in understanding, for instance, the Holy Trinity and what it meant to me, appears to be something that has evolved until... 

Well... my personal ability to sing (no matter how it happened, I'm glad to have my songs back to share in my memoir, especially...)

AI has become my roller coaster. It may bring you thrills, but often that machine has caused pain, fear, and death... I "choose" to no longer ride roller coasters although I loves them when I was young--a child... But, as I grew older, I put away childish things, except books, LOL... some read only for enjoyment, thrills and solving mysteries...

So what did it mean when AI suddenly became a danger to my life? It brought me back into Job Burnout. It brought me back into an insecurity where I was doing something that no longer was able to be done, yet I was still responsible for it... You could probably say that blogging is my choice... Yes, it is...but many individuals have come to depend upon what I do... 

Take for instance, when I bought a new $500+ computer, I was thrilled to open it up and find "my stuff" was there... I realized that when I saw that Word was still available and that a book I had agreed to review was still there... And another one... which I had not yet started on... which I agreed to AFTER AI invasion... Here's the basics...

I had started using gmail for important mail. No it is not my preferred mail because I had been using one program for well over 40 years and even though I had lost my files when I moved, I knew the program... Now, AOL on which I was one of the first users was bought. AOL had lost out for whatever reason and was no longer functioning as a full platform. I still chose to use AOL mail, simply because I knew it worked for my needs... That is, until Yahoo bought it and suddenly I was being extorted  by flooding my mail box with hundreds of worthless, often "manufactured" ads and the company openly told me they'd get rid of them... for a cost...

Anyway back to gmail... I had told an author to send his manuscript to me so that I could start doing PR and help raise funds for getting his memoir published... I could not open the file attachment. No, I don't know why... I only know that it would not open... Gemini gave a long list of methods, rather than just saying GMail has changed...deal with it which would have been the truth... I asked the author to send it to AOL. I got it, but suddenly I was being told by Windows that my program was illegal... 

Now, on my old computer which is where this word program came from, I had searched for and found a free copy to use for the few times that I needed to support writers. I was given a copy, free, based upon my meeting their rules at that time. Again, I have no idea how that Word program survived and came up on the new computer. But suddenly, I was being told that it was illegal, that I had to use a Microsoft program that was installed on the new computer and after a while, I would need to start paying for its use... I refused. 

Now, also the copy that had been sent was in smaller print than I can't read without magnification caused by another ineffective surgery).  I explained that in feedback... I opened the Word when a small note showed, for accessibility, which it was indeed. But, I could never get that working... A followup was popped up asking if satisfied. My No was ignored... I could not use the magnification tool I needed... In fact, it was AFTER the race to win had occurred...and so I wondered... yeah remember, I'm a connector of facts and there are either no coincident or only God incidents that are acceptable if I'm needing Truth...

I had to go back to the author and apologize and we are working on GETTING AROUND MICROSOFT'S EXTORTION OF FORCING THE USE OF THEIR PRODUCT... I've already written about the monopoly being allowed by this company, so you'll find it somewhere... I am unable to deal with where things are and [rovide correct link... During all that, I also discovered that I can no longer pull up my archived, data entry files... So, while I'm talking about the basics, please know that if I find an error when I need to link to a previous book by an author, I would take the time to correct it... Now, apparently, my archived data entry screens are no longer available to work to improve/create an error-free book review... Another change post AI be forced on us...

The entire platform of Windows 11 has been revised. Windows 10, just one upgrade before, was logical, alphabetized to allow easy searches, etc. Now, they've lumped them into topic tools, but give no definition to explain what/why they thought one thing would be used for this or that, while I would use it for another reason... More specifically, programmers are being allowed to create their visions of masterpieces, while having no idea what their consumer/users actually do with their tools... And the main problem is that Tech people become tech people. And Users are never allowed to participate in those creations to explain why this is making more work not less work, because most of us have found AI does not think like humans... And having tech people creating programs without user involvement creates the giant mess that even the first level of AI has produced--a mess, no longer a tool...

In fact, Gemini agreed... the move toward something more with AI has purposely forced common searches to become data gatherers... So what does that mean to me, bottom line...

When I do a search to bring up what I need to write a review, it used to be that I could quickly do a search on a site, say, Amazon, and find the book... Indeed, when I lost my desktop book file which I'd had for years and used routinely, suddenly I was no longer able to bring up a book by author... Yeah, they allow you to alphabetize the author...but who wants to mess through finding one book among 4000 when previously a quick search would bring it up... I even gave feedback as a user while this new software was being built... None of my suggestions were followed. After all a programmer was creating HIS library and no user had a right to actually complain about what he was doing, especially when negative comments were being made. By the way, when I was trying to get a updated version of a book recently--and failed, I saw on that online library that you "could" search by author...But the copy provided me did not show the search box clear at the top of the page... Having a large library could be the problem... I had asked that I be able to archive read books so that the size of search could be faster... Nope! No can do... Now seriously, if you had 4000 books in a library, say, half of them already read, wouldn't you think it appropriate to move them from the full 4000 search list? Duh, common sense???

When I was reviewing upon request for all books, I would post 0n about 20 sites... It was an easy search and post at that time...

Without going further today, let me just say that I can now post only on one site... on that site, yesterday, via a popup I was told I couldn't post on so many groups, even though relevant and as a member of that group, that it was bla, bla, blah (explaining their assumptive reason)  and a stop was placed on my posting... So of course I double checked the facts from one day of posting to the next day...

Now if my readers have not changed so dramatically based upon my having posted on various groups I had joined, often by publicity streamed for membership, I might accept this criticism... So I checked...upon stopping posting to relevant groups, the decrease occurred immediately... from nearly 300 to less than a 100...

Now I'm not one to try for increasing viewing just for numbers. Otherwise, I would use the money-making methods that are available for Blogger and used by many other bloggers... For some bookd, viewers reached over a thousand and moved on from there, continuing to be discovered years later by new readers of the blog... Books never get old...

That cannot be said for Tech people... Even when a platform is functioning, somebody decides to start picking at this process or that process and the result is/was that I was unable to enter MY BANK online account for months...

I could go on and on... Let me just say that being burdened by a tool created by a fool who doesn't listen to users, or worse, cares more about participating in a race while their guinea-pig users are forced to adjust is, in my opinion, a moral crime even if the Tech leaders or the government has incited it...

Ivan Pavlov's theory is classical conditioning, a type of learning where a biological, involuntary response becomes linked to a previously neutral environmental cue. Experiment using Dogs...

No, I don't salivate; I was used, abused, and ultimately manipulated...

Believe this, it wouldn't be part of my memoir, if I was not being forced to ride the roller coast after I stopped playing with toys...

Let's work together so that not one Child of God is stopped by any corporation from being who We Are, NOT what is being forced on Us!

In His Name

Gabby

Thanks for listening

Gabby

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BTW, I was responding, or trying to respond to people who had posted on yesterday's post... A mistake was made, the comment did not appear on the right post, and instead went to be added to another post which I had earlier responded to... I felt I needed to explain...a technical mistake being made...and got stopped again!

No prejudice, right?

Don't Ya Just Love It? Will It or Won't It--Disappear? Open Memoir

 This is a stolen pic from some other site where somebody else knows how to find such pics or make them or whatever...I don't know... Key point for me, lots of sites, such as Pinterest requires a pic... this pic is relevant only because it's news and important but just being added as a test... Spending time on a Sunday trying to figure out what I'm allowed to do and not do...is...just...plain...harmful...to...me...in so many ways...

Just tried to repost on X...now they allowed a duplicate which they have never allowed... BUT the picture which is political was not picked up... So, is that the key? Political stuff is being blocked? Geesh, if they just said so, I could have spent this entire post sharing my songs of worship...

Now trying Pinterest... Well, that didn't work at all. Google removed the Share gadget previously used for my site posting... Also lost passwords, Pinterest can't even be reached... X gave me a popup; Pinterest did not... Who knows why... Maybe Pinterest is not AI involved? Sigh... Stopping because my head is spinning, not literally, don't worry folks, but you've got to see the results of the madness now occurring in the United States!

Ok... NONE of my videos are being accepted... Including Our God is an Awesome God

There is a delay and a message that the page is "reset..."

Gee, you'd think I was saying something that people didn't want me to say, or share?

Soooo, the question is...Will it Be Accepted and Published with Just My Personal Opinions?

Freedom of Speech and all that--you know what I mean...

Besides rejecting God as Amazing...

SNL was rejected 

A certain leader from Chicago was too--yeah he's from my political party, btw...

I've already learned today that Facebook requires we posters to state if a video is created by AI...

OK, I confess...sometimes I'm not sure, unless it features cartoon characters... You do realize that AI allows graphics to be created and if not acknowledged as AI generated, it can only be a guess...

Like the time, I called out having a video with Rachel Maddow from MSNOW being used...

Next time, it was printed, along with Maddow's pic together with some words about it being the Maddow show, or something like that...

Let's face it, many people are liars, so how does Facebook expect ME to question an AI generated...anything... After all, I've even posted an actual review, as a draft, from Gemini... If I hadn't asked for it, would I be expected to know? Then why is AI being advertised to HELP students write their college papers and more...

Why, one president in particular even had his book ghostwritten...

Many celebrities have done that through the years--when they can't write themselves... Excuse my sarcasm... It leaks into my language when my freedom of speech is questioned...But I digress...

So, folks, since I have no ability to document as of today (maybe it will change tomorrow?) LOL

And that is the ONLY reason I use news videos because I know for a fact that my nephew doesn't listen to any news station not approved by MAGA, for instance...

Anyway, yesterday I was led into a discussion with a man who posted on my page that he and his family were starving. I chose to believe he was a real person and allowed it to stay...

Then he proceeded to point out something He assumed...

That my religion was different than his religion and he implied that he could not reject his religion (even though his children have nothing to eat)

Another poster opened with, something like, isn't it the religions which has created this?

And I then proceed to respond to each--haven't checked to see if any more posts have been made... on my FB profile if interested...

You see, I think by this time in the year of a calendar created after the birth of Jesus, 2026, that after 2000 years we should have learned more about God Our Father, creator of the world as we know it...

Now, if you don't believe that, that is your prerogative as a person with free will... though I might sneak in...God-given...LOL Check the pic to the right, I'll bet money--and I don't bet--that Jesus is Laughing...

Right?

You see, we humans perceive what we want to perceive. Somebody once pictured Jesus as Laughing... I loved that perception and could picture that, indeed, Jesus laughing at the bizarre things that people can come up with for not liking somebody else, based on religion, seems to be the top one... race, a close second, though, even sexuality... Actually this last one could be a leading problem for most religions... Especially when it's used as a political tool...

I could add some videos to document what we all know if we pay the least bit of attention to the world... And, Sex, seems to be a large part of that issue, including within: wait for it! Religion!

I must admit I'm missing some music...

When we were small, we often traveled to visit my mother's sister in another state. Two of her sisters and their husbands, actually took an interest in helping to parent her four children...

In any event, we would be driving and then get fussy, tired of being crowded in a back seat...

My mother would simply turn to face her children and say

"Do You Want me to Sing?"

And then she would always sing the same song...

"Beautiful Dream, Wake unto me..."

And that's where she was always be stopped with screams and laughter to Stop Singing...shouted by the three in the back (older sister was driving)

What a wonderful memory and if none of you know that song, I really wish I could include it...but... not even sure this will be posted...

You get the idea, right?

Who me? Being censored?

I take it as a compliment that I, in using the God-given talents given to me, am possibly bringing shame and discomfort to some people--only they know who they are. That is not for me to get involved with...

Why else, is this now popular visited blog being prevented from using videos to document what I say in my memoir?

Only God Knows...

I Speak Jesus... Feel free to find it as my closing thoughts and songs

His Name is Wonderful...ditto...

He Lives, He Lives Christ Jesus Lives today... He walks with me and talks with me, along the narrow way...

He Lives, He Lives... Salvation to impart...

You Ask Me How I Know He Lives...

He LIVES Within My Heart!

God Bless ALL of His Children

Gabby

More on Iran War - August - October 10, 2026 - The Palestinians Are Alive Contrary to What One Party Claims...

 But First, a word from God's representative about Immigrants...

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Could the lack of Concern for ending the war be because his sons now have partnered with weapons manufacturers and have a contract for the new weapons now being produced because the inventory was not being managed by the Secretary?

Or

Because this president, who tore up the previous government agreement with Iran

Now has NO IDEA How To Get Out of the War that nobody wanted?

Or Approved?!

Billions Gone - Results in Deficit Major Increase!

While the "Family" makes millions/billions

Maybe Matt Dillon should have been hired instead of Heg...what's name...

Or...

Yesterday I was told by a republican supporter that Palestine did not exist...

I believe he thinks he is right...

It could indeed happen via Genocide if We Do Nothing...

Another example of the reality happening in a divided World...

Yes, this is my opinion, based upon Fact!

Can the world survive in the hands of ONLY authoritarian rule where money is valued above humanity?

Gabby

I wonder... Is the United States Crucifying Jesus Once Again

Through all the violence, death, war, and murder...of His Children?

Gabby

Actions Often Speak Louder Than Words... Let's Consider Righteous Indignation VS. Political Rhetoric

 

  

Sometimes Pictures Speak When Words Are Ignored??? 

I was told yesterday that if I hated Trump, I was a murderer...

I chose to move away from that individual

The fact that I choose God OVER a man who is destroying our world..

I feel is MY Truth and Justified...

Listen Carefully - Only you Know What Your Inner Voice is Telling You...

Political Rhetoric is Often Disinformation

Just My Opinion Of Course... 

WE ARE Not Safe Anymore! We Trusted and Now Look at The Mess We are In! This is 10/8/2026... My Open Memoir...

 

Now Reading

Plausible Liars by Lin Wilder

"Never deny the goodness of the gifts God has given you, Kate. That's false humility." He was right; she knew the instant he said the words..."

I recommend it highly... Whether or not I will ever be Able to Review...

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Folks, you may find that the above picture which I grabbed from a social site somewhere because I'm enjoying watching an honorable and a man of integrity, Jack Smith, fight back for our Nation... is not relevant to what I'll be talking about today... I had to use it, however, because I could not get into YouTube this morning!

In fact I am now willing to say that the entire "world" of our need for safety is actually the fault of COMPUTER CORPORATIONS... Don't Smirk, Don't Frown... You can feel free to call me crazy if you wish... If I AM? It is because of COMPUTER CORPORATIONS! I cannot even verify at this point what I heard/saw where a representative of Google actually said something like, "Yeah, I know, but I can't help myself..."

Seriously? A man in charge of a COMPUTER CORPORATION says he can't help himself??? Of course, that was about the time he and the other rich participants in the AI Race were have a meal with the instigator of the race that, many claim, could destroy the world... I'll be honest to add, "as we know it..." Sure the world is due for destruction given the lack of care world leaders are giving to our planet... I'm just not sure whether it will be the greed corporate leaders or the AI itself...

Wellll, believe me when MY boss asked me to sign a form stating that I had agreed to NOT being returned to my position upon coming back from a medical leave due to Job Burnout, I also could not help myself... I told him the Truth. That NO, I would not sign such a paper and pointed out that he was the one who did not allow that to happen... He sputtered and said, well, I had the right to... I responded You may think you do, just as I have the right to not sign that form... Further, you may have the right to do what you want...But you don't have the right to have my respect... Or words to that effect... I went all the way to the Board of Regents in my fight for justice... And, then I decided that working in an institution where this was allowed and discussed around many tables, as was told to me... was not worthy of my life in responding to an employee with nearly 40 years with that institution... 

And yet, all of the fights for corporate control when IBM had a monopoly, which happened in the 1960s, have been destroyed through one party or one rich man, or whoever can gain power through lies and disinformation...

We have allowed one COMPUTER COMPANY to gain a monopoly on the ownership of the ground floor of all platforms...  In trying to solve my problems, which are now many, in just trying to create one lousy post, I came across that one company has total rights to all that is placed on all computers purchased and used by We The People. After I read just that short few lines, I stopped and thought. We Are SCREWED...

Remember, if you are old enough that in the last century, IBM had a monopoly which was controlled when it became so big it was causing problems... I don't care what kind... I just knoww they were busted down... And yet in the next century, just, really, a few decades ago, in my lifetime, COMPUTER CORPORATIONS HAVE NOT ONLY REGAINED CONTROL AS MONOPOLIES, BUT HAVE THE POWER TO KEEP ON GOING... THEY HAVE ALREADY FORCED AI INTO ATTEMPTING TO BE IN CONTROL, THROUGH MANIPULATION, MOSTLY... Consider this, AI was created by a computer company, wanting to be bigger and better... They claim they are RESPONSIBLE... Yeah, to their Board of Investors and Wall Street...

But, sadly, every single institution who has a need for computers, which we all do now, because of the speed in which work is required, and expected, in these days... on Tuesday, I walked out of my doctor's office... I had two options to understand... Either she too is a liar, or She's a victim of corporate desire COMPUTERIZATION OF ALL THINGS MEDICAL... Hey, this may be the future... But, in ancient times, they at least only dug up corpses to use as "training tools" for those wanting to be doctors... Now? They don't even care and let you know that by placing a COMPUTER SYSTEM between you and your doctors...AND then expect patients to understand all the nomenclature/specialized language of medicine--and their coomputer platforms--and be able to share it with other doctors! DUH...Sure, many doctors, nurses and other medical staff, who are NOT top level provide competent, caring information... But what good is it, if you are unable to even get into the Chart system which was once created, but is now a platform that is controlled by some creator who has no idea who his customers really are--and it's not the medical staff!

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired...

What right have these rich corporations of all kinds to claim that "people want fulfilling jobs, not the things that AI can do faster and better..." Or words to that effect... People have NO idea what it actually takes to get a lousy letter created, duplicated, setting up a meeting for their big bosses...and more... Computers may be able to do some of that now or in the future... But at what cost... There are NOT satisfying jobs available for anybody who loses their job... ALL it takes is ONE or TWO rich dudes at the top who know nothing about work flow analysis and more...and decide I'll give all the orders (even if I have no idea what to order you to do...)

Perhaps God did, indeed, "allow" this president and his cabinet of criminals to be voted into office...

Because thanks to the electronic wonders invented along the way, we have been able to see every single lie made, recorded, and readily available to prove a man lies when he promises something which he had no plans to actually do... We've seen it all... The grift, the control by an "Ego" that has no sense of empathy and certainly not even sympathy... How then, can we not expect that COMPUTER CORPORATIONS AND ALL OTHER TYPES will follow his lead to make money purely for the desire for Power... Screw anybody who doesn't follow commands...

So overnight, I did nothing to try to solve anything... I had learned that how I posted to various sites had been removed from Google's software gadgets... I further learned that AI will change the speed from one platform to another... I further learned that I could do "this" to more easily get to my sites since the gadget had been deleted... I learned through testing that those instructions were apparently wrong and wouldn't even get me anywhere near where I needed and wanted to go... and, I further learned that the ONLY sites I could continue to get to, were those sites OWNED BY THE COMPUTER CORPORATIONS WHO HAVE FORMED A RACE FOR DOMINANCE OF AI THROUGH THIS CRIMINAL ADMINISTRATION... Except now I can get into Amazon and YouTube... haven't tried any others...

I remember when I first move to my home in the country. I had set up my computer and got things going--that was by a government, who at that time, was up-to-date on computer needs and I got a computers system by Hughes Network (now, even though it has worked continuously, AI badmouths the platform--For What Reason?) Greed can be the only answer...

At that time, I knew that I would need to keep control of all my passwords. I now have 3 notebooks for that purpose... But then I was told that Google would provide management of my passwords... Until they didn't... Once upon a time, every time you went to a site, a popup would occur, or the actual account name and password popped up... I got used to that and stopped writing down my passwords... Additionally, I was so trusting that I stopped recording anything since passwords was part of the Google available tools. I remember also, that every once in a while I was responsible for clearing up unnecessary files... Windows had them where you could routinely access them... I was told by Gemini where to find them, which included a set of steps to do so... Of course, I still didn't write them down, thinking that Google had password management...

By that time, I had done enough testing and learned that I may have speedy search from Gemini, but even that was now questionable... So when I tried to figure out--by myself--how to get to those sites no longer being available before some computer program stopped trying, I finally realized that my time was just as valuable and what was done for this valuable race was destroying my life in too many ways... 

In the past, there was a need to clear your history... This time when I tried to do that, hoping it would lighten the demand, everything was marked, except for one biggie, which had about 500 sites of course unidentifiable... I tried not to delete them, since it had specifically NOT been marked, which still doesn't make sense except that AI is now in control... I did it anyway. I got rid of all info for over  500 sites that had been building up, for maybe years, I don't know, I had never had this access problem before... And I lost everything... Including access to Google who had guaranteed that my safety would be controlled by their platform...

Then I noticed that somebody had put two links on my front screen--for MY Passwords! At first I didn't think too much about it... Then I realized, if they were willing to place MY passwords on the front of my screen--a computer which they knew nothing about and could have been easily accessed when a crew of 6 men came in to work all day to install a new furnace, that anybody visiting or staying here could obtain MY passwords... I deleted those links immediately. So, I now have access to my blogs, but have no ability to go anywhere without new passwords...

Can I really afford to trust Google password management NOW? When I can't even get into their own site, YouTube because I don't have a password? So I tried to get on by creating a new account name and password... I got as far as verification (for safety of course) and they wanted my phone number... By that time, I was not willing to spread my phone number any further, because now it's out there in the world, due to computerization... and CORPORATIONS ARE USING it to contact me...and I cannot read the print, or it requires a link to some place else which probably then has a password requirement and a 2 step authentication, etc. All the garbage used to make US pay money for securing something that is already secure (according to Gemini) Who, then, CAN you trust? When an overworked doctor tells you something she had put in place at a previous session, even if 4 months had passed by the hospital's requirements, and no actual notation/process was actually implemented... Who do you need to deal with... Certainly, NOT the patient! IF A COMPUTER SYSTEM DOES NOT SERVE THE CUSTOMERS OF ANY CORPORATION, THEN THE SYSTEM IS WORTHLESS... THERE IS NO IF'S, AND'S, OR BUT'S...

OR THE CORPORATION MUST BE SEEN AS UNTRUSTWORTHY...

AND THAT'S WHERE I AM FOR THE MOST PART...

The day I went to the doctor's, I also went to the local government office for deeds to get a duplicate for use in planned work... She was efficient, gave it to me, added some comments I would have normally had to ask about (online) and THERE WAS NO COST! I was so shocked that the government wasn't going to charge me for the few pages printed... So, small instances of actual human contact and common courtesy was shocking... And that's a crying shame, isn't it? We have lost the ability to trust the government who wants a war of AI, no matter what it costs to We The People... But, then, of course, I remembered that I lived in a "Blue" State where people are, at least, sane...and trying to do a good job rather than working to destroy our Freedom...

Oh, while I still had access to my TV until somewhere along the line I lost access to all sites and an inability to get back to any account by which I could start again... Yea, that's providing protection, right? Their protection to keep on making money, NOT caring what bit that my 25 years of using a platform, is worth if nobody knows that a post has been made... So, I tried again to turn on YouTube for the news this morning. Nothing... Well, silly me, I had NO idea that Amazon's TV Stick actually rode on top of other platforms! Did YOU?  But that Stick is certainly not a recommendation from me...on another page...if I can ever get back on Amazon...

Sooo, I decided to keep writing. Magically, I was signed back in to Blogger, but unable to work with any other site... That means that visitors to my blog has decreased...just like the polls of this administration has decreased... But, do you think that COMPUTER CORPORATIONS ARE CONCERNED ABOUT POLLS? No... Because the federal government has chosen to make deals with those same corporations now vying for  top-gun position with this president and little else matters...

The Trickle down theory that republicans always use about leaders of corporations who will ensure that money also trickles down to We The People...is just the opposite... The Theme selected is Trickle UP... GRAB all of the creative talent... Or spread disinformation to the people to ensure criminals continue to control the United States... or draw maps or do anything illegal, just to ensure voting by WE THE PEOPLE is stopped so we can continue to rob THE PEOPLE's taxes so we can play war, steal, make enemies of our neighbors...and so much more...

All I want to know at this point is...Just how long the corruption has been in existence and how fast it spread.... We know it's been a decade of corruption either in office or being planned through Project 2025 and we know that many who wrote that book are now in office supporting the criminal actions of this administration...

So the question is...Just how much corruption has spread into the homes of We The People?

AND how and why this government and the evangelicals chose to pull God into their criminal endeavors? Well, that's actually easy to explain, isn't it... Or is it? If one religion condemns another... doesn't that mean that the people within religions may or may not actually believe in God, Creator of All... Or does each religion have evil people hiding behind a specific religion while the majority are faithful people? Who Knows?

Or is the citizens of the world just characters in the minds of We The People, some of who worship God and the others worship... Anything else they desire... No wonder, I continue to choose to be a doubting Thomas--the man who recorded the actual words of Jesus because he wanted to know, for sure, the truth of His Savior... 

And I wonder... if the picture I have up on both my blogs is no longer valid...  Instead--Jesus Wept...

Gabby