May 19, 2025 - Within the Sounds of Silence - Early Life Vs Present Chaos The Loss of Women's Right to Choose

 

Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

Whether it's through a dream, a flashback, or when words reflect something that is in my past, my life has been full of both joy and sadness... and now anger...

About a week ago, I woke up from a dream of various chaotic things that had been going through my mind, based upon what has been happening... Many of them relate to women and how they have and are now being treated... It was during my mid-teens, after I had been baptized, decided the King James Version was not for me and found a Bible that is no longer in print, that I started reading the Bible regularly--it was written in "American" so I could easily understand all that I was reading.

One day I did what many people, I am sure, have done before... I thought of a question--What dos my future hold?--and opened the book, expecting an answer. It actually worked... it was a story about a family that I opened to... By that time, I wasn't too sure about the whole idea of being a wife and mother and, at that time, I confessed that I didn't think I wantd that future... God listened...

I can't remember what happened... All I know that when my uncle died years later when I was old enough to understand, I had a reaction to his death... I was glad he was dead(!)... I cried as I looked into his coffin--not in sadness, but in guilt for being happy he was dead... At that time, I had to realize that he'd hurt me when I was very young, probably through touch, and I'd never been able to release that feeling of pain.

It wasn't the only incestual touching... also, all by those active in church... Through the years, I've read of many stories of incest, including within the church.

I'm sharing this for a reason outside of my own life memories... I feel strongly that this is one of the main reasons that women, in past years, have sought out and sometimes died through attempts to abort a child from incest, from rape, from marital abuse (rape)... What has led to so much sexualization of America/the world that it has become worse? Consider pedophilia, human trafficking, ongoing rapes, sexual abuse of children, sexual harassment on the job... Seducation of our young (on the lonely) online...

There is no way that I can ever be convinced that it is a sin to want to rid our bodies of the sexual connection with people that should never have happened. For me, it led to mixed feelings about my own sexuality for the rest of my life. I had been exposed, too early, to both good feelings and bad feelings related to sex which left me confused, angry, and full of distrust... while at the same time, finding that I enjoyed being sexually attractive to men... I have NO DOUBT that many young girls have been placed in the same situation in one way or another... Mainly because sex has always been Within the Sounds of Silence...

Knowing this and seeing how women's bodies are now being controlled by the government is...just...an... impossible...situation that we cannot allow to continue!

A number of issues came to my mind as I became involved within the adult world, and, especially, when I started reviewing books... Some books have even been written under a different name or simply anonyously--women needed to write about something that happened that greatly bothred them, but they were/are afraid to share and talk about it openly. I say, "No Wonder!"... And when Roe was overturned, all my feelings of childhood sexual abuse came back, not to share about my own life as a Christian woman... No, these  ongoing actions toward women had started and been made a part of the Bible that some call the Word of God. I firmly have NO DOUBT that what certain men think about women is not what God intended... Free will or not...

I kept silent until after I had graduated highschool. One of the things that changed my mind was the Me-Too movement!

It didn't surprise me that a Black woman initiated this major movement that spread across all social sites at that time... After all, many of us who studied our family charts, or read historical books knew that many owners of slaves, or their overseers, raped their Black females... often purely as a financial reason to increase his slaves, who were "owned" even if they were mixed-race...

Yes, sexual power arrived at my door as soon as I started working full-time... My thought, so what else was knew? What really bothered me, and I assume many others, was that women began to imply that I was involved with a boss just because I was promoted, while they remained in their jobs... That hurt, since I worked hard to get good grades, to continue to learn, and prepare myself for advancement... Did they? But, let's face it by the '60's when hippies were promoting "Free Love," it was already part of our culture. Ads included women in bathing suits or sexy clothes to entire women...and men...to dress to attract the opposite sex... Billions of dollars have been spent on such products, by the use of sexual attraction. Let me clarify, these are not necessarily critical statements, it is merely factual statements of the evolution from ancient times of men taking or owning women to satisfy their own desires... In fact, there are a number of sexual activities in the Bible which when read, and then left for interpretation, are the basis of much of what has evolved, in my opinion. Consider for example, the actions of King David related to Bathsheba as well as doing nothing when his daughter was raped by her brother...

Now, we have an administration and some part of America who claim that the past was better for "family." I can only point out that there are good and bad issues at all times in life... Going backwards achieves nothing other than eliminate all the good that has been made to bring the world forward.

During the campaign we began to see the truth about how Trump treated women... When I saw Trump leaving his podium and walking back and forth behind Clinton, I knew exactly who he was... I had met a couple of them during my tenure on a university campus where power is often used as control of employees... (or at least attempts) I never gave in to attempts to use power to change me, so was ultimately "disappeared..."

I could keep on sharing video after video about problems with pregnancy during the time that abortion bans have placed so many different procedures state by state to create more trauma for a woman than when we had doctors who were working, in confidence rather than fear, to ensure all women are given the best care possible... If you'd like more examples of women from all races, let me know and I'll do the research to bring them to you--but most can be found on YouTube, especially covered by MSNBC...

Let's put it "bottom line" for the present preesidency,  DEI implementation by the president has made it quite clear that non-white patients and women patients (and employees) are being pinpointed for no reason... other than bias, prejudice and hate by those rich, powerful and white men...This about says it all doesn't it...

By the way, I added a video above, which just came out related to the death of Epstein... You may remember that he was charged and convicted for having very young girls available at his "parties..." Whether by incest or men like Epstein, it seems the younger they are, the more power they feel over females, don't you think? No wonder white men want to return to the days when they were allowed to be "white supremacists..."

Today is voting in my state... I will be there!

Gabby